Leap of Faith.

I feel so good right now--words can't even begin to describe it.

I remember (not specifically) that I wrote a previous blog on irrational fears. I remember I wrote about how life's events affect our greatest fears, whether or not they are waranted, these irrational fears seem to control us. For example, in 2003 my best friend passed away in a tragic avalanche that killed seven students. I can honestly say that since then, I have only snowboarded a few number of times that could probably be counted on one hand. Why? It's not that I fear the mountains will take my life, it's I fear facing reality. Up until this year, I can honestly say that I hadn't completely dealt with her death. I felt going snowboarding would not only remind me of what happened but it would force me to accept that it happened. A year later in 2004 a good friend from youth group was hit by a car while she was turning left pulling out onto the highway. I then dealt with another irrational fear--left turns at uncontrolled intersections. Was this fear waranted? Probably not. Does that make it any less real? Definetly not. After loosing both of them, I felt that the people I loved most in my life seemed to be taken away from me, I became afraid to become really attached to someone for fear of loosing them. Yet another irrational fear. As the cliche goes--it's better to have loved and lost than to have never have loved at all.

Now, to the point. Why did I bring this old blog up and summarize it? Well, for starters, I summarized it so that you would not have to dig through archives and archives of stuff to figure out what previous blog entry I was talking about, and secondly, I brought it up because I feel like I've taken a step towards overcoming these irrational fears. For what specific reason, I do not know--all I know is that God has blessed me and through His love and His grace, I am making steps towards healing.