Glued to the table.

These words are my diary screaming outloud...

1 Corinthians 13:3
If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing...

What is this love they speak of?

I question.
God answers.

1 Corinthians 13:4-7 4
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Is love the greatest emotion we can seek to attain?

I question.
God answers.

1 Corinthians 13:13
...now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

I feel this moment as a time to reflect...has there been a moment in time in which I have felt love, faith and hope in such a powerful way that I have fallen down to my knees?

I reflect.
I remember.

The most powerful emotion I have ever felt--the loss of a loved one. It was here that I found complete desperation, denial and loss of faith. I struggled. I battled. I was torn, beaten up, and drowning in my own tears. I hit rock bottom and cried out for help. I felt alone, desperate, and at a loss. I felt defeated, angry, and shut out. I searched for answers in the wrong places, my hurt took me to dark places. I ran my hands along the walls as if I was blind--I was hopeless. Gone. Shattered soul. Broken heart. Empty mind.

It was there in that desperation, in that lonely, mind-numbing silence that I found you. There faith was renewed, and love and hope restored. It was as if I opened the bible to this verse and my cries were answered...

Lamentations 3:19-22

I remember my affliction and my wandering,
the bitterness and the gall.
I well remember them,
and my soul is downcast within me.

Yet this I call to mind
and therefore I have hope:
Because of the LORD's great love we are not consumed,
for his compassions never fail.

I was lost, and Jesus found me.